vulnerability and visibility
It’s been thirteen years since I lived in a place with a winter. And while this won’t be a shovel-out-the-driveway, trudge through falling snow winter, it has suddenly gotten cold. Just last week I was still wearing t-shirts and shorts in the afternoons. Now it drops below freezing overnight. Plants are brought inside, or die back. We start to burn through the winter wood. Learning how to build the most efficient fire, how tight to spin down the vents on the stove before bed,
I Start Behind
Here I am again. Here we are again. I wanted to write a story of transformation, but I haven’t learned to transform. No, that’s not it. I haven’t learned to love myself. No. That’s not it either. Let me explain. Rather, let me show you. I can’t be someone I’m not. So who am I? A freezing cold creature in the darkness. Having to apologize for myself, for being myself. Having to apologize again for hurting you by hurting myself. I’m still not saying what I want to say. What I w
